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Showing posts with label memories. Show all posts

I'm not sure how to talk, really talk, about how much this concert meant to me.

Back in high school, my ears were opened to a whole new level of music. I've written about it a lot in the past, but it changed my life. I already liked alternative music a lot, but my life-long friend Ben had discovered some amazing sound, thanks as always, to the British.

Cocteau Twins, Kate Bush, Bauhaus, This Mortal Coil and Dead Can Dance.


Dead Can Dance's Brendan Perry and Lisa Gerrard. Photo: Jay Brooks / Sacks & Co.

I thought they'd broken up back in 1999. They've both put out solo albums, etc. Dead Can Dance was done, right?

Imagine knowing a band/musician that had moved you in amazing ways. Imagine that band/musician was never going to produce any more of that soul satisfying sound again. Terrible.

All the credit for knowing about the return and world tour of Dead Can Dance goes to my husband. He found out about it and said we could go together. What an offer! But...

But this music belongs to me and someone else I am eternally entwined with...my sister-in-law Alesha. I told Cameron that his offer was wonderful, more than generous, but I really had to go with Alesha.

And I did. We had to go together to experience something long hoped for and never to be realized, except now it could be realized.

The venue was the Red Butte Garden amphitheater and the concert was last Saturday. I thought a lot of my friend Ben, now passed away these eight years, and how he was the catalyst for my love for all this music that I still love so much  (going on nineteen years).

It was a beautiful, dream-like concert, so much more about sound than noise, an amplification of the senses rather than the volume of an electric guitar (though that's awfully fun, too). Dead Can Dance are classified as "world music." Fair enough. They are Gothic cathedrals, rural Turkish villages, Greek churches and Irish fields.

Brendan Perry's voice is a rich, elevated baritone and Lisa Gerrard reminded me of a graceful marble statue that could sing like an angel.

I wished Ben could have see this concert. I wanted him to be there. Dead Can Dance have never made it to Salt Lake City before. At the third encore, an unfamiliar song introduction began and I puzzled it out in my brain and then came the utterly unexpected "Song to the Siren." Originally written by Tim Buckley, recorded by Pat Boone, then Tim Buckley, then This Mortal Coil (sung by Elizabeth Fraser from The Cocteau Twins). This Mortal Coil's version is the one I know best and when I was in high school with Ben, he expressed that he'd like me to sing it at his funeral.



When Ben's mom called to tell me that he had passed away, she said wanted me to sing but that she wasn't sure what yet. I related what Ben had told me ten years earlier and she said that's what she wanted me to do.

So here I am. Standing at this concert, with my sister-in-law and friend, who accompanied my singing at Ben's funeral, listening to the very song I sang that day, all the while thinking of him, wishing he could be there. Of course, I cried, but it was so awesome. Alesha and I clung to each other.



These musicians move me. I am so grateful for the effort they put into beauty and ethereal elevation.

I got to go with Ella on her final Kindergarten field trip to Wheeler Farm. We sat by her best buddy on the way. Ellie the Elephant had to come too, of course.

The geese were friendly and the kids had a wonderful time running around. This was a brave thing for Ella.Her favorite part was this huge tree that turned itself into a playground. The children swarmed over it like bees in a hive.

It turned out to be a really great Mommy and Ella week. She got sick Tuesday afternoon and she just let me cuddle and coddle her. Before I knew it, that night and the following day, she was so chatty to me and wanted my attention and I felt so loved and needed by her. It was such a great thing. I don't exactly know how, but our relationship shifted into a good place. Yay!

As we got started on some fun Christmas stuff in the kitchen, Ella said it should have been Pink Day today (Wednesday) because "I like Pink Day to be on special days and I can tell that today is going to be a special day."

While Bryce and I got a new batch of caramel measured out, Dane and Ella worked together to make their first ginger bread dough.

Taking a break until I can help with the next stage...That night (or maybe it was the next? My days are blurring) we went to see the lights at Temple Square in downtown SLC. We haven't been here for years. Long enough for Bryce and Ella to not even remember or know about the place. Ella was very excited! (this vid is a subdued Ella while we were there)


Dane said the wider spread trees reminded him of Lehi's Vision of the Tree of Life. (another example below)

Lights everywhere!
I loved this feature on the reflective pond in the Main Street Plaza. After this we slipped over to the Joseph Smith Memorial Center and looked down on the Square from the 10th floor. The kids loved that.
It was just warm enough and it's always nice to not have to worry about slipping on ice. We went inside the North Visitors' Center.
The kids in the room with the Christus. They loved the depiction of the universe. Bryce was amazed by the size of the statue.

I was so happy to have a lovely time with no more than an occasional "When can we go home?" from Dane. I was a great taste of the Christmas spirit!

I loved 1984/1985.


I was a big kid. I was in third grade (still my favorite elementary year). I have so many memories from this age.


We moved the summer before school started and I began a new BIG school. I was miserable. I had started my education at a small school that had (gasp!) only one class per grade. I had been with the same kids (with few exceptions) for three years and now I was a tiny little fish in a huge pond, scared and lost.


Bless my mother for her mercy. She allowed me to transfer back to my beloved Rees School for one last year. I cried when I heard the news. Had I ever been happier?


Awesome things from that year: a class camp-out (can you imagine?) and a 3rd-5th grade sleep-over at the school. All rewards for reading excellence.

It was in 3rd grade that I was reborn into the world of music. We had a reading station in which we'd sit in pairs under a sheet-covered table and through head-phones, listen to homophones or some such thing. One day my friend Ben brought in a Cyndi Lauper tape and we listened to the intracies of language in "She-Bop." Ben, despite this odd new-wave beginning, has been influencing my musical choices for over two decades, may he rest in peace. "You're the Inspiration" by Chicago was our song, in my mind anyway.

My teacher was way awesome. She was full-blooded Navajo and she taught us songs and sign-language from her culture. She was an excellent and dedicated teacher (and she still remembers me).

My sister was born in 1984. I still love baby Mandy like nothing else. I treasured her as if she were a perfect doll that lived and breathed and belonged to me. I changed her diapers and delighted in her growth and accomplishments. I wonder if my mom ever felt a bit robbed by my taking Mandy completely over. I did my best to teach her to sit up, to talk, sing and write her letters. Although there's definitely a generation gap wedged in between us, I love grown Mandy and mama Mandy like crazy. I do not know what I'd do without my sister.

This is all on my mind, because I just realized that Dane is in third grade now, that favorite time in my life. I worry because I'd been into boys for years at this point (though he seems blissfully uninterested in girls, the whole of his class being just friends). I hope that he's having a great time. I hope that he feels as alive as I remember feeling. I loved recess and I loved reading, so we're the same there. But he gets math and is quite good at it. There's a big difference. He has been with 60% of the kids in his class for 2 1/2 years now. He seems confident and like he's learning what Dane is all about. For as much as he dislikes working hard, I'm impressed with how he can when it is needed and has even learned to be pleasant about it. I embrace his big-kid-ness.


Isn't that a great brother/sister picture?

Well, I've had many wonderful experiences since my last post, and of course, that's always how it goes, especially if you are choosing the better/best things after you turn away from the alternative.


I'm sitting here medicating myself with Karmel Sutra from Ben & Jerry's and with the peace that comes with being with family, being taught and retaught eternal truths and seeing Bryce finally kick the ball during a soccer game. I've nearly finished with my latest amigurumi. We're having crepes for breakfast tomorrow.

I was about to put in a quote here that I really like and then I realized it was from one of my own poems. There's got to be some coolness there.

One of my favorite moments of the day, right after Bryce's kick was that I got to hold my nephew today. As he was sitting on my lap, he suddenly stopped his playing and planted a sweet, squishy infant kiss on my lips without being prompted. How awesome is that?! 9 months and he already knows how to make my day.
Dang this ice cream is good.

I've been practicing the piano. I don't know how to play, really. I've been trying to use the Hymns made easy book and I'm improving, but just yesterday I borrowed The Little Mermaid piano music from the library and I'm doing quite well on "Part of Your World." I hope Ella's impressed. She still loves Ariel.

Credit for this artwork goes to Briana Garcia, whom I don't know, but here's a link.
Cameron has decided that he wants to dress up for Halloween. Yay! He's really gearing for the latest Harry Potter film and has decided to be Severus Snape. His costumer(me) and make-up artist (also me) are really excited. I may go all out and make myself into Bellatrix LeStrange. That'd be wild! I haven't started getting ready for Halloween this early for a long time. Should be a good one.
Have a lovely Sunday/week everyone...

New York City is an old Grande Dame of a lady that can't quite keep up with her upkeep.
The first thing that Cameron and I had to face on our second trip (just two nights this time) to New York City was this extremely long, broken-down escalator. We just finished climbing up and thought it very picture worthy. We arrived Friday evening and had just enough time to check in, change and take the subway to here:

The cast was great, most making their Broadway debut. Tony was marvelous and Maria was lovely. The whole cast was full of energy and fun. My only complaint: they substituted a lot of the songs' regular lyrics with Spanish a LOT.

I had my first cannoli after the show.

These are some sites on the way back to our hotel. St. Patrick's Cathedral at night.Saturday morning we dropped by Grand Central Station. HUGE place!
We went to the official (the original, right?) New York City Library. It was mostly covered up by renovations, but at least the lions were on display. It was awesome inside and I love how they grouped their poetry section. I even helped out by re-shelving a misplaced collection of Auden poems. Yes, I am a serious library nerd.
Warning: if you take pictures inside TURN OFF THE FLASH!!! A fellow tourist snapped a photo with a flash and two guards from different areas of the same level converged on the poor soul peppering them with angry "No flash! No flash!" calls.

We hung out at Bryant Park while we waited for the library to open. Happy Anniversary to us!This is William Cullen Bryant for whom the park is named. He was an American romantic poet, journalist, and long-time editor of the New York Evening Post.

After switching hotels to the, ahem, Waldorf-Astoria (I can now be thankful that Cam was a frequent traveller) for our second night we went to the American Natural History Museum and Rose Center for Earth and Space. Cam soaked up this place like I did with the Met last year. He didn't want to leave. We watched an IMAX with images from the Hubble and saw the regular planetarium show. Very interesting.

Check out this bad boy meteorite.
I'm more of a history girl than space and the future type, so I was really happy with the dinosaur section. There were more types of skulls and skeletons than we'd ever seen before. The variety was amazing. Here's a T-Rex The parasaurolophus is a long time family favorite (mainly because we learned to pronounce it), but this was one of many amazing crested/horned dinos. I loved these.I missed the kids a lot here. There was so much that they would have loved.

Nothing beats eating on the streets of NYC.
Saturday night we headed over to the Lincoln Center for the Perfoming Arts to watch a Met opera out of doors. Then Cam said "There's Moroni!" He saw the reflection of the temple in a window before we realized the Manhattan Temple was right there. I'm glad we at least got to walk by.
A view of the screen we watched Tosca on. The Metropolitain Opera House is just behind it.
Here are a few images of the amazing soprano that played Floria Tosca.
Both of us were so moved by the performances. Even though we hadn't been familiar with the music, it was our favorite experience for this trip.My trip to New York wouldn't be complete without another visit to the Metropolitian Museum of Art. Like Claudia from From the Mixed-Up Files of Mrs. Basil E. Frankweiler I could really live here.

The more I see of Van Gogh, the more I love him. Look at how thick that paint is!Seurat There was an odd creation on the roof called The Big BambĂș. We weren't too interested, but look at the view! A sea of Central Park with the sky-scraping mountains behind. Gorgeous medieval limestone sculpture.
Our kids were fascinated by this box when we told them that it had an actual mummified falcon inside. (This was part of the expansive Egyptian section)
"Here comes the train again" Eurythmics style...sing with me!

We rather like taking the subway.
What a fancy place this was! There is a dress code after 6 PM. I felt like we had to sneak in quickly after our long day out in our casual wear so we wouldn't be kicked out! If you look carefully, you can see the Chrysler Building just above the word Astoria.

We headed back to Penn Station (and on to Newark Airport) right after this photo was taken, having just finished a huge Reuben sandwich at a great luncheonette. Yum! Now that was a bite!

Oh, I love New York!

I love to scrapbook and so I'm always looking for ways to communicate what the photos on the layout aren't saying.
For me, personally, I haven't been 'journaling' my journey in life. I'm one day going to reach the destination of who I really am and I'm not going to remember squat about it.

Bryce currently has some fecal fascination and I can't keep the stuff off his hands. He won't tell me when he uses the toilet and how am I supposed to know? We're working through it. He'll look at me with those amazing big eyes and I sense that he's waiting to see if I explode or manage to stay in control and promise him a treat if he'll do better next time. He's crazy full of imagination right now. So alive and not out of control, but full of everything wonderful a toddler should be.

I know that God loves me because I have three wonderful kids that teach me daily that I am important to someone. Mothers definitely get their share-more than their share-of criticism. Half the fiction books out there have some mention of the wrongs the protagonist received at the hands of their mother. One day, my kids will be grown and they might sit around and discuss what a crummy job I did with this choice or that choice I made as a mother, but if their experience is anything like mine, they will also be able to love me just because I am me and they will somehow know that, despite it all, that I loved them with all my heart. That I broke it a thousand times for them. If I'm really blessed, they'll be able to see that they broke it, too, sometimes, so much so I didn't think I could go on with the next five minutes.

There is so much drama in little kid/parenting life.

Ella is so tender, but it sure seems like she's been working the emotional system lately. I cannot even give gentle correction without her eyes pooling with tears. It's frustrating, but it is making me more aware that her needs are different from two boys and that I can accomplish that without coddling.

Hang on- Bryce just earned a treat (see above mention of Bryce).

Dane is an amazing kid. He is very concerned for others, yet at the same time, he uses very selfish tactics. This polarizing way of living seem very appropriate for an eight year old. They do make sense. He can really help around the house like never before and I have seen him be fascinated by the things he sees me and Cam do and then I show him he can do them too and he gets excited. Yesterday I showed him how to use the electric can opener.

Ella's crying because Dane has teased her. I never know if it's a big deal or not. I finally understand why my mom said (when we came to her with over-the-top crying) "You'd better be bleeding!"

She's snuggled against my chest now. I have learned lately that she really just needs time and a hug. I try. She is so lovely. So affectionate and I do love how she looks us right in the eyes, still, and communicates her love to us. She is all that i wanted in a little girl. She is deliciously imperfect perfection.

It's time to have a place to record the little wonders in my life, especially when I get to have a two-way with God. I'm getting myself a journal that doesn't have to plug in.

Here is Zealand.

So

stinkin'

cute!When I went to visit my sister and beautiful new nephew in Georgia, I didn't want to leave without some sightseeing. There was a small window where Mandy wanted to be out and about with my mom and so my mom said she'd drop me off at the place of my choice and pick me up a few hours later. Since I'd forgotten my camera, I used my mom's and just got the files from her this week so...
First (and only scheduled) Stop: The Margaret Mitchell House

Only it wasn't a 'house' in her day. It was a bunch of tiny apartments. She moved here shortly after her marriage to John Marsh into apartment number one, just to the left of the main door. This lion banister cap faced their door and it is said that she rubbed its nose each day for luck. Nothing in the actual apartment, which you'll pay $15 to enter, is authentically hers (though there are photos of her and her relatives). What you get for your money is to actually be in the place where Gone with the Wind was born and honestly, that was cool enough for me. They're even pretty sure where she wrote (believe me, there weren't a lot of options): the corner with the best windows and right under the radiator. You can see photos of the place here. Across the courtyard there is a space dedicated to the movie Gone with the Wind. There are two authentic props from the movie here. They have the painting of Scarlett that featured in Rhett's study in the Atlanta house.
They also have the door to Tara. The problem with going on tours such as this by yourself is that you have to take unflattering photos of yourself to prove you were there. Can you name the actress/character who wore this dress design and in what scene in Gone with the Wind?

The nice thing, the great thing about going solo is that you can take your own sweet time.
Since I had literal hours to kill til my mom came to find me somewhere in this city, population of approximately 4,917,717 people, I started walking north. I was not totally blind though, there were incredibly helpful visitor maps.
I ended up here. There was a special Leonardo da Vinci exhibit here, but honestly, could I justify the entrance fee when this museum and hey, this whole vacation were not budgeted for one week before Christmas? I patted myself on my thrifty back and hung in the cool giftshop and bought myself a Munch postcard and headed outside again.
This is Leo's horse. It is HUGE. I'm bad at estimating, but I'd guess it was 40 feet tall.
Luckily for me, there was a library right across the street from the museum, right on Peachtree street which I was trying to stick with so I didn't get lost. I am always home at a library. I sat down at a table and wrote while waiting for the call from Mom that she was almost back at Ms. Mitchell's place.
I walked swiftly back to meet her, catching this cool sign on the way. I passed the actual intersection where Margaret Mitchell was struck by a speeding car at the age of 48 while crossing Peachtree. She died days later.
Nothing like a solo adventure.